31.01.11

start typing an article owing that I don't feel good. Frankly speaking, I'm lonely, very lonely. I miss the days I can talk to many many people rather than having no one. We were all once so close at that time. Right now, we're just strangers. I tried to chat with you, but the replies you gave me was probably never more than 3 words.

So I ask myself. What happened? Why did everything come to this step? Why did everyone just leave me at once at my weakest moment? I know I won't know the answer right away. I'll roughly get the answer in a few years since I see a lot and learn a lot from life.

Why is it so difficult? I don't need my life to be full of romance but someone who truly loves me. It seems so impossible.

I'm feeling down now due to the coming days of going back to school which makes me sad. I don't feel it's time already, another 5 months busy until the next vacation. I really need more rest.

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想說來打篇中文文章好了，反正其實也沒人會來看啦!這樣反而好，我就不會一直被問問問，人確實是個很矛盾的生物，一直被問時覺得好煩，不被問又覺得大家好像都不關心妳了，其實，是你自己不想別人關心你的吧

曾經，當我談論到一個個朋友離我而去，你只回了我有一天我也會成為那個把你從msn上刪掉的那個人，我信誓旦旦的告訴你「不會，你是我的好朋友，你一直聽我說，我們一定會一直是朋友的。」
現在的我，想起當時的自己，實在覺得自己很愚蠢，什麼永遠的朋友，一切都只是「空」。沒想到自己有一天也會被你害的這樣，我走過來了，也看「輕」了，其實像你這種人，處處都是，只是提早遇到而已，其實也沒什麼大不了的。
不懂那些流言蜚語是怎麼傳的?其實說真的也都不重要了，看著永遠掛在msn上的你，有時候真的很想你，想念和你講話的感覺，你贏了。